Alive again...

He was prepared to die.
In fact he was glad because of that.
His all trouble and his guilt would be just killed with him. He had said his goodbyes, even had the chance to say his last words which he wished to say. So when the door opened , he just smiled and looked straight at guns pointed at him and said "What took you so long?".
He didn't close his eyes. He just wanted the last bravery in his life. And what surprised him , his last thought was " when she'll know about my death , she would forgive me. She would know I helped her and the rest of them."

But to his surprise when they fired he wasn't the one to be killed. The guard was shot and one of the men in masks ordered him to step out of the car. They unlocked his handcuffs and put him to the black car.

"I thought you would kill me there. But I was mistaken. Who are you ? " He was still sure that they were going to kill him but in a different place and they wanted to discredit his words. That's why they made everything to look like he escaped . But than he saw a body in an orange clothes put to the van and the detonator in the hand of one of them.

"Sit quietly . We don't want you any harm." he heard.
"A rescue ???" he asked with a smile on his face."Now ?"
Suddenly everything came clear... They must have been Aldo Burrows people.
Than he thought of his sister. She would think he was death. She will be sorry for him. But she will be proud. And Sara... Will she forgive him ? Will she forget his betrayal , that he was whom he was ?

They took him to the safe house. He got new suit ... He even got a sunglasses... It made him laugh. They treated him well ... Why shouldn't they.. He possessed information. During the court he had told just a little part of it. And he knew much more. But what he found the most funny was that nobody had asked him if he would have worked with them. They assumed that he will.

"As you have to disappear for a while we'll send you somewhere far." said the man in a gray suit coming through the door.
"Why do you assume that I will work for you ? "
"Sara"- was the answer.
Just for a little while he couldn't say the word. With a smile on his face and his eyes almost closed he sit in a quiet.
"Well, where do you want me to go ?"
"Panama"
He rose his head and looked at the man with a surprise.
" We need somebody to find both Aldo's boys and of course Sara. Michael is in Sona. Lincoln is somewhere out there and Sara just disappeared.
It's possible that she had been captured.
"When do I go?"
"Tonight. At the airport you'll meet the guy who will support you with anything you need. He'll be waiting for you with a notice with "Rich Lions" name. He will also give you all the details you need."
"Allright, but I want just one think more. Somebody has to take care of my sister."
"Done."

And just like that he was sitting in the first class in a plane to Panama. Going to rescue Sara and the brothers.
"Sara will be really happy to see me there" he thought with ironic smile on his face...



CHAPTER 2

He saw a tall man with a friendly smile on his face.
"A killer" he thought.
Tall man was holding a piece of white paper with "RICH LIONS" with capital letters.
Paul came closer and smiled.
"Hi, I think you are looking for me"
"Mr. Lions ? Come with me. You can call me John." the man moves were soft and quick almost catlike
"Well John, I am glad to see you" Paul answered walking after him

He was taken to the safe house just outside of the city. Warm, nice place with single beds and white walls. They told him that Sara was taken as a hostage and they knew were she was kept. The next day he was going to do something about it.

It was dark outside...
He was sitting on a bed. Cleaning his gun. Things like that he had always done mindless - he had the time to think.
There were few women in his life.
He run away from home when he was eighteen.The situation at home was just so bad that he couldn't bare it any more. Than was the army. - The Rangers. He was proud to be a Ranger. That's why he always wore the ring. During the army there was no time for love. He was learning how to kill . To kill quickly , to kill slowly... To get information from the enemy by all means. That was no time for love...
Than The Secret Service...
He had learned more ways of killing and more ways of getting information. He learned how to change his personality , how to cover his feelings behind that all meaning smile he was wearing now.
But there also was a woman...
She was an agent too. They knew , they couldn't fall in love . They had spent few nights together. Than it was over.
Next and the last was the work for Reynolds.And considering it now he could say it would be better he had never started that job.
Oh, he loved her....
At first it was just a little feeling something like friendship. He wanted to take care of her. He wanted to be always by her side. Than she found out and gave him a hope that she might be willing...
The bubble burst...
He was able to do everything for her smile, for a warm word.
But she trushed him so quickly... He had never meant anything for her. But even before the her betrayal he started to think.
He was ordered to keep an eye on Sara... He changed his name , put a new smile on his face and started to gain her trust. And of course he did it.
But there was something more... She had some warm feelings for him and he... He couldn't stop himself from feeling something for her.
Than he betrayed her.
Now , he knew what she must have felt.
That was the thing he understood so clearly.
She will never forgive him.
Or... maybe...just maybe,,,
But he wasn't Lance any more. Even he really wished to be...
He was Paul Kellerman - a former soldier, a former agent, a killer. He was killing so long that it seemed to be impossible to change now.
And which women would like to live with a murderer ?
Sara wouldn't.
But didn't he show her that he had changed ?
Didn't he save her and Burrows from prison ?
Didn't he do all of that knowing he was signing his own death sentence ?
That thing - that he was still alive didn't matter. He was willing to die ...for her.

He stood up from the bed , walked to the window. The sky was dark blue and the stars were shining. He realized that it was first time for a long time he had looked at the stars and actually noticed them.
He was alive... He got a chance to change. Would it work for him ?
But the stars were shining brightly like her eyes...


CHAPTER 3


Early in the morning he woke up.
The sun was just rising.
That was the day....
After quick breakfast he took few guns, checked them and put on some "private" clothes.
John drove him near the place Sara has been held.He had to go in there, take her from the people holding her . Rescue her...
How ironical.. He was going to rescue her...
He...
Quietly he went behind the building and took off two guards. Than the only two left were those inside. Those who had been there with her. He had chosen the quick way of surprise. The door had burst and he went in. They didn't even had the time to point their guns at him.
She was free... And frightened... And surprised almost to the death.
"Lance.. Paul...what ...I thought...I heard you were killed ! "
A little smile passed through his face "I was supposed to be... but somebody was faster than them. Can you stand Sara ? " - her name was so sweet to tell
"Yes, but you have to untie me"
He helped her with the bounds and helped her stand up.
She looked at him strangely.
"Paul.. I.. thank you"
He smiled to her with his the most Lance like smile.
"That's nothing. We have to move Sara" even for him his voice sounded unusually soft when he said her name
"Where do you take me?"
He stopped and looked at her "Friends... Aldo Burrows friends"
"So you work with them now ?"
"I have been given a new life. I owe them something...Let's go now"

They run to the car and John drove them to the safe house. Burrows people took her for questioning and he was let to his room.

"Thank you" she said...She thanked me... And she called my name...And there was no hate in her eyes. But she was tired, frightened and surprised. Probably she just didn't have the time to start to hate me again...


He was just sitting in the room. Everything was so quiet...He closed his eyes . The sun was touching his face... He fell asleep.
And in his dream he was still in that room, sitting in an armchair but he couldn't move, couldn't say a word.
And than she came in...
"Paul.. I didn't mean to disturb you... Oh, you are sleeping... Maybe that's better... I wanted to thank you. Thank you for your testimony at the court which you made even though you knew they wouldn't let you live. Thank you for clearing Lincs account, for rescuing me today . And I'm... I don't hate you any more Paul.
But I still can't forget.
I hope you'll be happy in your new life"

"Not without you" he wanted to say but he couldn't...

And than he woke up. The sun was gone and the room was empty.


"Just a dream..." he thought "just a dream...."



CHAPTER 4


He went downstairs to the kitchen.
It was late but after sleeping all day he was just really hungry. When he entered the kitchen he saw her.
"Hi Sara" he said with the smile spreading oh his face.
"La..Paul"
"Still hungry late at night ?"
"Yes.. I was just going to make pancakes"
"Let me do that"
"She looked at him and said sadly " You sound like Lance again..."
Her words moved something inside him "I wish I could be Lance ... But I am not... But still I can make pancakes for both of us if you have nothing against eating with me"
"No, just do it quick. I am almost dying from hunger"

He started to prepare food and she helped him. For a while he forgot who he was . And when she addressed him as Lance he responded.
She looked at him...
"You really want it back, don't you ?"
"Back what ? he must have looked a'bit stupid standing there with a pan in a hand and a great question mark in his eyes"
"Being just a friend, without bad memories"
"You know I do, Sara" he said with smile .
"Let's just try it for tonight" she said softly
He looked at her surprised.
"Are you serious ?
"Yes" she almost wispered
They smiled...


In the morning , when they met downstairs one of the men said something about pancakes left in the kitchen. Kellerman looked at Sara and she looked at him back.... And they laughed.

The sun was shining again... The sun shone for him. He couldn't stop the stupid happy smile from coming when he thought of yesterdays night, pancakes , laughter and her smile...
He couldn't stop himself from hoping... Not for a love... He knew she would never love him but for a friendship.
The thing he almost never had.
He hoped....



CHAPTER 5


He was waiting for orders.
He was used to gain orders and follow them.
But to his surprise no one was going to give him orders.
There were few people accept him and Sara but accept John everyone behaved as he- Paul was going to be their superior.Finally he asked John about that. John looked at him with his little smile on his face “You” he answered.
“Me???” Paul couldn't believe in what he had heard. “But I now nothing about the people and the place and the mission” “You've got us for that. We were told to listen to you and to tell you everything. But also wait for your question when you'll be ready”
That answer really surprised him...
Finally a command ??
Well, it was the hard part. He has to decide what to do first . To find Linc and than try to rescue Michael or to try to rescue Michael first. If he had really the choice he would never rescue Michael .... But by doing it he could gain Her trust and friendship.
After a while he decided to find Lincoln first.

********

At the same time in a hotel room...

Linc couldn't find a place for himself. Sara was missing, Michael in prisoned...He was left alone. Free but alone. For a moment he was thinking about calling Jane but he decided that he want to think the things over. If it was just simple... He had never been good in planning ... He wanted to protect his little brother, to help him. But how could he protect him without being with him ? And being with him ment to be in prison again.

He still couldn't really believed that he was free. And thanks to whom... Linc would never think that Kellerman would reveal the truth . Linc hated the man and understood him at the same time. He was used to understand criminals...

“All right” he thought “ Kellerman was probably dead by now. By reviling the truth at the trial he just made himself a dead man.”
In fact Linc felt sorry for that. Both reasons – first – because Kellerman was killed to make him free and second – he couldn't kill him himself. On the other hand during their escape he got to be able to stand him. He even started to talk to him. And now Burrows would use a known face near by. He felt powerless.
“Damned you Kellerman... Damned you Michael... Damned you both...!”

**********

He had screwed his life.He did that to make Mikes live better. He had always taken care of his little bother until his brother came to safe him . Linc didn't mind killing if it was necessary . For a long time he had nothing to lose. In fact now he had nothing to lose either. His son wanted him to stay away , his ex wife and his love were killed , his father was killed too. His brother was in prison and his brothers girlfriend was gone. Even his well known enemy was gone.
In one moment he realized that he wouldn't mind Kellermans company. At least well known enemy is better than not known one.

There was a knock at the door...Quiet knocking...
“I didn't order anything” he thought.
Carefully he opened the door and...
“You ??” he almost screamed “ How. ?.. What ? .... You are not dead ?”
“Unfortunately I am not.” said Kellerman with his sarcastic smile spreading on his face.

They stood in front of each other... None of them would consider it possible but they just gave each other a hug... “What the hell are you doing here” Linc asked when they sat down by the table.
“I work for your fathers people now. We had found Sara and I know where your brother is. We can try to get him out of there.”
Lincoln looked at him strangely.
“You've changed”
“Not as much to not to be able to take care of some bussinesses. I am still myself, Linc.”
“Right, one cannot change like that. You are born killer”
“Linc, you have to come with me. It's not safe here. If I was able to find you , somebody else would to the same.”
“Do you mind if I make a call ?” said Linc looking carefully at the man sitting on the other side of the table.
“Jane ? Call her.”

Jane confirmed that Kellerman was working for them. For now Linc would consider it as a really good news. Knowing that he was on their side made Linc thinking about the future in more bright colours.

*************

Sara was sitting in a room watching TV. There was some soup opera on but she was just blindly looking at the screen seeing and hearing nothing.
Last months were just crazy. First she got a job at Fox River Prison . She met Michael – a man who went to prison to safe his brother from an electric chair. Than was the escape and she helped them – she did it from love... . She couldn't bare it and she just took a shot. Than were AA meetings and a wonderful friend Lance... Later it appeared that somebody else and he tried to kill her. The lose of her father, lose of somebody she trust to – Lance, lose of her love – Michael- she had lost him so many times... Next were the days on the run with brothers and “Not Lance” - Kellerman.
The trial...
And Kellerman again. Despite her try to kill him , despite leaving him on the street... He came and testified at the trial. Quietly and truly he answered all the judges questions. He explained everything. And at the end when she wanted to thank him , he just said “I t was good knowing you Sara” He sounded like her long gone friend Lance... And after not really long time she was left alone again. There was one short moment of happyness and than it was all taken away from her. She had killed a man. She shot him. Michael went to prison again and Linc was gone.
She knew that the Agency wouldn't let Kellerman live so she thought of him as of a dead.

Just when she left the police station she was captured by two men and they held her for three days. Than in the morning somebody came to rescue her. Her lost friend, her worst enemy, a man who wanted to kill her and whom she wanted dead. A man whose testimony made her free. He took her to the safe house and behaved like Lance used to. He was carrying and he smiled to her. And for the first time from a long time she was really happy to see him.

After many questions and answers from “Burrows Brigade” as she called them , it was late at night. She didn't see Kellerman all day . She went to the kitchen to have a snack because she was ( as always ) hungry. When she was just trying to decide what to eat somebody entered the kitchen. It was him – Paul – Lance. He said that he would do pancakes and they started to cook. It was just like old times. Sara was watching him ... It was just like having old Lance back...
In one moment she started to think that it could work. Probably she could have her friend back...



CHAPTER 6


At the first moment he just felt so lost. Without really noticing anything around him, he walked through the corridor. Faces around were just moving... It was just a dream. A night mare. It must have been...
One again he was in prison for somebody he loved but this time there was not plan. It was as Linc said. He had never done anything without a plan and yet he was here in a place he knew nothing about. There is always a way out. But it needs a plan. And there was no place to think ... no place to hide...

*******
"Let me get it straight... You've changed, you work for the good guys now and your goal is to get my brother out of prison and let us to live in peace ?"

Kellermans face widened with smile and his eyes closed.
"I've changed- yes, but not much. I want to free your brother – yes, but I've got my reasons to do that. Let you live in peace ? Probably when all that crap will finish I would like to live in peace too."
"Your own reasons ?" Linc was more than curious.
"If you think that I am going to betray you- you are wrong. On the contrary, I want to gain somebodies trust . That's my reason."
"Sara." It was more statement than a question.
"Yes Linc, Sara."
"She's in love with Mike."
"I know that . I just want to be friends with her again."
Linc looked at him with some kind of understanding in his eyes.
"Friends ha? You are a dog type Paul. You just can't live without a master."

It hit him. Was Linc right ? Was he really just looking for another master to follow the orders ?
"And what if I want her to be , as you say , my master ? What 's wrong with that ?"
Linc looked at him with a strange sad smile. "You fell in love with your last one."

********
"It's not possible... He couldn't fall in love with her. And if he does it will cause only pain for him like the last time.
She would never...
No. He is not in love with her. Linc was mistaken. He wants her to be his friend and nothing more" Paul was thinking before he fell asleep.

If he could only hear himself...

******
"Sara' Linc came into the living room.
"Linc, I am happy to see you. I thought that something had happened to you . I was worried. It's good he found you."
"Surprisingly for myself I was happy to see him but it's not what I wanted to talk about."
Sara turned to him with a fear in her eyes.
"What happened Linc ?"
"No, nothing special. Nothing is wrong. I was just thinking... Have you changed your feelings for Kellerman ?"
"What do you mean ?" there was a great surprise in her voice.
"You used to hate him. You even tried to kill him. But now it doesn't look like that any more."
"Oh, er...yes but after all that happened later I think I started to think about him a'bit differently."
"Differently ?"
"He's just ... He had changed. It's like to have a good friend back."
"Alright... I get it." Lincs voice sounded so far away...
"Linc, why do you ask about it ?"
Linc smiled again and half leaving said "Nothing really special. I just saw that you don't behave to him the way you used to. That's why I asked."

*******
Linc left the room and sat at the stairs. He just understood them. All of them. He understood his brother being in love with that woman. But he also understood Sara for feeling lonely and left alone. For feeling betrayed. And at least he understood Kellerman. In fact he and Mike behaved not really differently to Sara. They both put her life in danger, they both betrayed her. Now they both saved her life. And they both hoped for her friendship and...love.

He felt sorry for Sara and his brother because there was really long way for them to make everything right. He felt sorry for Kellerman because there was no chance for him to get love from Sara. He felt sorry for Sara because she had to choose. And finally he felt sorry for himself because he knew all that crap and had to live with that.


CHAPTER 7


They needed a plan. Unfortunately the one who was good in planing was also the one they were going to rescue. First they just couldn't visit him in the prison because there were no visiting hours. Second they had to get informations about the place. Close informations. For that they needed a person who had been in there.
They needed to infiltrate the prison society and find the way to contact Michael. But how ?

"Wait" Sara said. " As far as we know , he is not alone there. Unfortunately people he knows couldn't be good allies. There is Bellick and Mahone . I talked to both of them. Surely Bellick is just like a cow. Stupid and slow but Mahone... He is one of the most intelligent people I know. But he is an addict. Whitohut his drugs he won't be able to think."
"We can supply him with that drug" said Kellerman quietly.
"Yes, but first we must get in and find the way to contact Michael." said Linc.

At that moment the door opened and one of Aldo's people, Ivory, came in with a small old man.
"It's Julio. He can solve our problem. He spent almost all his life in that prison and he has some connections – his both sons are there and they are bosses of one of the gangs."
"That's great !" they said at the same time.
The plan and the possibilities were growing . Now they were able to contact Mike.

********
A tall tattooed man came closer.
"Michael?"
Michael looked at him totally surprised.
"Yes?"
There is a message for you" said the man passing a small paper crane to him...

Michael was just sitting and holding a crane in his hand.
He almost was scared to open it.When he finally did he found few words:

"Find Mahone. Tell him of escape. We'll supply him with his drug. Work together. The man who gave you that letter is our contact. We need a plan.
L,S,P"

They were out there . And they were just trying to get him out of that place. He started to think again. The plan...
they need a plan....

********
He found Mahone in one of empty cells. He looked like... an addict ... An addict without drugs.
"Hey, Mahone..." he whispered.
"Go away... I'm...not...here..." he heard from a piece of a man Mahone had been before.
"Listen to me Mahone. There is..." started Michael but he was interrupted.
"It was your fault that I am here. You've ruined my life."
"And you ruined lives of many people including your own. Shut up Alex ! Listen to me. There is a way out and we can escape from here but we need to work together. We can be free !"
Mahone looked at him with empty eyes.
"Go away... There is no future for me." and he turned to the wall.
"Alex , think of your family. You can't spend all your life here. Mahone...?"
"I don't exist for my family. They should forget that I had ever existed."
"But do you want to forget them ?"
The answer was just dead silence...

******
They sent the drug for Mahone. He was able to give him it but Alex just denied talking to him.
Than , when he just gave up...
"Scofield ?.." There was Mahone at the door. "I need my medication to think straight. Than we can just think the things over and come up with the plan . Can you get my pills ?... "
"I have it Alex...." said Michael softly "Do you want it now ?"

The eyes of the older man brightened "Yes" he said quietly.

Michael gave him the box. Mahones hands were shaking... His eyes were shining... It took a while before the drug started to spreed through his body. But effects were seen quickly.

They spent almost all night on planing. Both intelligent, both quick and both desperate enough to try even the most impossible plan.

CHAPTER 8

At the same time outside of prison walls.

Linc and Paul went to see SONA. They walked around SONA. They found all weak points... Not many of them were there...

Sara was pointing down all ideas coming to her and others minds.
After a while it came clear that although Michael was able (thanks to connections ) to live like a king inside the prison , there was almost no way to get him out of there. There was one way – stike and riots. There were no guards inside prison but there were many of them outside. If they made riots and make prisoners storm the gate they could find the way to open the gate from outside. It meant brute force attack. They only hoped that Michael and Mahone would find a better way , that they would come up with a plan... better plan than bursting into a prison by force...

Kellerman couldn't find a place for himself. He was trained to fight , secure , kill ... but not to think about plan. Even when he started planning it was more like "Let's kill them all " or " Why don't we put C4 on the gate and blow it up ?"

Lincs ideas were a'bit different. "Riots and than break out" or " Get the guy in charge of SONA and treat him with a gun to make him free Michael"

Sara would just like to make everything by law. The worst way to do the things – as Linc and Paul thought.

At the end they decided to put all the ideas together. Sara with some lawyers was going to start everything by law. Find the evidence that Michael was only defending himself. Lincs plan to cause riots was a good one. They sent Michael a message about it and riots were going to burst after a month. And at least at the moment of riots Kellerman and other people of Burrows was going on with his "Kill 'em all and C4" plan.
Michael accepted the plan. He had no other option...

*****

All my life was just gambling with death.I am lucky to be alive with a past like that...
I was never able to choose right thing to do... right partner to live with... I just didn't want to be like my parents.
So, I've been choosing things they would never choose.
Things I knew they would not be satisfied with. I became a doctor because my parents didn't want me to do that., I was with guys they would never accepted. And finnaly I started to take drugs to forget about everything. It was my escape from the reality.

I always knew that it wasn't a good way , but it gave me possibility to forget and to dream. To dream of better world , a better plane for myself... someone really close.. One of my last men was really nice and carrying but extremely jealous. And because of that I almost wasn't able to see my friends. I started to take more and more ... And one day he came home and beat me... I realized that something went wrong with my life and choices I made. But I was't able to free myself from that and from him. "I love him" I thought. And than came the day when I wasn't able to help that person on the street. That was it. I went for AA and than I chose the worst job I could ever chose – Fox River. Of course it appeared that it was just the beginning of the night mare. I fell in love with a prisoner. Than was the escape and I just couldn't bare it any longer. I tried to take my live away. Than I met someone who seemed to be great friend and I was betrayed again and almost killed. My escape and meeting with them all again. Anger that made me trying to murder the guy who tried to kill me...
Trial...
And Kellerman words freeing me..
The shot... and I became a murderer....
Again being captured.
So many loses... My father – who wanted to help me..., a friend who had never really existed but was performed by Kellerman... Michael – I've lost him so many times...
It appears that whatever choice I make it always is the wrong one.

And now I've got my friend back... Changed but still the same... I am going to free the man I love with the help of the man who tried to kill me and him.
Life is funny...
You never know when it comes up that the life has fooled you again and everything you would never believe that could happen – happens.
And I just wonder... What else can happen to me ? What else I can feel...

CHAPTER 9

Seconds long like days... Empty mind and some kind of projestor in front of his eyes showing his all live mistakes... moment by moment... He wasn't able to think , move or act. He just wanted to end his life right now but he couldn't move... Than through the smoke of the past and memories he heard the voice calling him. "Mahone ..." He didn't even try to answer to it. But the voice was calling him again... He tried to point his mind and connect the voice with face... Scofield !

How could he be in his dream ... Because it must have been a dream – the night mare...

Then some memories of past days came into his mind... The boat ... Drugs... PRISON !!!! He was in prison... and he needed his medicaments... but ... for what... his family was away and it was better that way... he told them to stay away and forget him...The fog of visions went down again...

"Leave me alone. There is no future for me..." he said and felt into the darkness.

*****

When the smog of his dreams flew away he recalled Michaels speech... Freedom ? The way out ?... He realized that he was an addict long time ago but he's never stopped taking... And now he realized how badly he was addicted... He needed his medic... DRUGS. Let say the truth. - Drugs.

Michael said that he needed him to make a plan... He knew he was intelligent. But without his drugs he was not able to plan going to toilet not talking about planing escape...

He stood up and went to find Michael...

"Scofield ?.." he said "I need my medication to think straight. Than we can just think the things over and come up with the plan . Can you get my pills ?.."

*****

A little later...

"Riots ? Are your friends crazy ? How can you cause riots in prison ruled by prisoners ?"

"Putting them into fight each other ?"

"Fight ... Right but than you'll have to find at least two strong groups and make them hate each other... Right... Wait .. we can do it..." his eyes were moving quickly .... "Ivo and Rodrigues... Strong group holding everything in one hand...two hands... four.."

"Stop playing with words ! We have a plan to make ! It's hard enough that I have to work with you Mahone . I don't need you to play your words games."

"Word...world..." he shook his head "Right... I just have to start thinking straight...I will be alright..."

"I hope so. If you are not able to think then I just don't need you any more.."

"Oh shut up Michael , you know as well as I do that we need each other. Alright. Let's stick to the plan. Point one – riots."

"Ivo and his brother are in charge of the strongest group. Now we have to find all those who are not satisfied with them holding the power..."

*****

I was watching him preparing lunch... talking to John and Iv... Laughing with Linc... I saw something strange in his eyes when our eyes met... Something warm and ...Lance like... I stood there and looked into his eyes and...I felt sorry for not meeting him in the different circumstances... There are moments I just want to escape from here... from them ... both of them... Because sometimes I just can't choose...

 

 

CHAPTER 10

Everything was set...

Everything planned...

But every time you make a plan there is something what goes wrong...

One night Michael just disappeared... When Mahone went to see him in the morning there was no sign of him. Mahones first thought was "That bastard escaped without me" but then just few hours later he got a message from Lincoln with some questions for Michael. Mahone passed a note that Mike was gone.

*****

"Michael is gone. He disappeared at night. What had happened ? What should I do ?

M."

They were looking at the note...

Thy were standing there almost half of hour ... Standing around a table , not knowing what to do, what to say..

Everything had collapsed about them. He didn't escape. He wasn't here... So, where the hell was he ? Was he dead ? Mahone must get an information. Somebody must have known something.

*****

Sara stood in the kitchen. Tears didn't want to stop coming. She just felt so pumped off. There was nobody to hold her... Nobody to say warm words... Nobody to make her feel better ... Standing there alone she was crying out all her fear , pain , loneliness and longing...

And right in the moment when she felt she couldn't bare it any more she felt warm arms around her shoulder and quiet voice telling her that everything would be allright.

"Come on Sara... Everything will be allright. We'll find him. Don't worry..."

"But...I feel ...so broken... and... so lonely..." she said through tears.

"I am here for you Sara... I always will be..." he whispered....

Than she turned and let him cuddle her close.

"Thank you Paul for being here" she said quietly.

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Linc was looking for Kellerman. He has an idea he wanted to discus with him.He opened the kitchen door...

"Kell... What the fuck you are doing here ?! "

He had all right to be mad... He saw his brothers girlfriend in the arms of ... let's say ... in arms of another man.

Sara turned to him with her face all wet from tears.

"Linc, stop screaming. Nothing happened. I just needed a shoulder to cry on."

"But..."

"Stop Linc" Kellerman said " I know she 'll never be mine, I know she's Mikes girlfriend but I am her friend and she had nobody else to be here for her."

Linc didn't know what to say. Of course he reacted aggressively. He wanted to protect Sara – his brother's posse...sion.... Wait. Did he really think of Sara as of a thing belonging to his brother ? She had her own free will and in fact he wouldn't be surprised if she didn't want to see Michael any more. And in fact she could have needed somebody to talk to and to cry on somebodies shoulder.

And Kellerman was there for her...

CHAPTER 11

Darkness around... He couldn't even see his hand... What had happened to him ? Just few hours ago he went to sleep in his prison cell and now... Where was he ?

"Hey ! Is there anybody in here ? " he screamed but even his voice sounded quiet...

"Hey ! Can anybody hear me ??"

Then , almost straight by his ear he heard a whisper...

"Be quiet or they might hear you"

"They ? What They ? And who are you ??"

"It doesn't matter who I am. Or should I say who I was..." said the whisper "Now I am here and you are here... And believe me ... you don't want to be heard"

Michael lover his voice and whispered back.

"Why ?"

"You better pray to not to get to know that. Now be quiet. Can't you hear them coming?"

Michael tried to head something... There was nothing to hear...

What the hell is happening here ? Was he in prisoned with a madman ??

*****

She woke up late at night... Something has awaken her... Loud whispers... Two men just quarrelling... She tried to hear what they were talking about but all she heard were only separate words... Stay away... Sara... don't even try ... not Michael... Love her...

Who was quarelling ? Whose voices has she heard ? Love ? Who was talking about the love in such a place in such circumstances ??

She put on some clothes and quietly went out of her room... She saw two men in from of the house...

Well she thought let's see who is that.

She opened the door and saw ...two surprised men turning to her... Linc and Paul...

"Hi... I heard voices and came to see who was it..."

"Hi Sara" they answered in almost one voice. They looked like a little dogs caught on eating a slipper...

Almost laughing she looked at them... "Are you done with quarrelling ?" They nodded. "Good, so not let's have a night snack. I am hungry and I don't feel like going to sleep now."

Without saying a word they nod and went to the kitchen. They really looked funny...

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"Paul would you be nice and make some pancakes ? And Linc can you bring a'bit of wine ? I think there is one bottle left in the living room."

When Linc went to get the wine she asked Kellerman.

"What were you quarrelling about ?"

He smiled ... " Not really quarrelling and not really what"

"What do you mean ?"

"We were exchanging points of view... about someone"

"Who ??"

"You Sara"

Then the door opened and Linc came in.

They had a nice time sitting there and eating. They even tried to joke... But she was thinking... Me ?? They were exchanging points of view about me ? So who loves whom ? What they were talking about ??

CHAPTER 12

 

There was nothing to talk about. Nothing to quarrel about. He didn't love her, he had no chance by her. Than why Link was so damned afride that it could happen ? Why he almost screamed at him ? Did he know something more ? Did he talk to her about ... Stop. You just make your hope growing. There will never be a thing between you and Sara. There will never... But what is wrong in hope ?


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Few hours had passed and there was still darkness around. He didn't even hear his coprisoner. Then the
door opened. He was only able to see a hudge man throwing something into a cell. Then he fainted.

He woke up sitting on some kind of chair. He couldn't see a thing because there was something cowerring his eyes. He couldn't move cause he was bounded to the chair. But he could talk.

"Hey , is there somebody in here ? " he whispered.

Than to his suprise he heard a voice saying: " Oh , you woke up . That's good , we want you to know what we will do to you. We want you to feel everything and to be able to anwer our questions. And probably if you are a good boy, we could let you out of here. "

"What do you mean ? " asked Michael

"You father did something wrong to us some long time ago.He had stolen our property.  Now you are here."

It suprised Michel. His father ? How could he know what his father had taken from than ? He didn't even know his father untill few days ago.
"But I don't have any thing belonging to you. My father gave me nothing"

"You don't understand. " said the man laughting. " You are the property he had stolen from us. You belong to us."

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Sara was decided to get to know what was the quarrel really about. Or , if she could belive to Kellermans words, whom was the quarrel about.
She tried to talk to all people who could hear it , but there was nobody who could say something. At last she asked Linc.
Linc looked at her strangly.

"Why do you want to know that ?"

"I am just curious" she said.

"But I will not tell you that. And don't ask Kellerman. I don't think , he would tell you."

"Oh come on Linc, just tell me who loves who ?"

There was a long moment of silence...

"No, Sara. I won't. I just should not tell you that. Understand, there are things which is better to not to know about."

Sara smiled " Alright, I wont ask any more" but her fingers were crossed behind her back.

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She has to choose herself. Nobody should make her choose. If I told her what she wanted to know it could change her point of view. It's good he didn't even realize his real feelings. No, I will say nothing.

 

 

CHAPTER 13

 

Mike was gone ... There was no information where he could be for a quite long time. Such a long time that they had to celebrate Christmas without him. Celebrate... It looked more like the funeral than Christmas. It was a Christmas Eve.  Linc and Sara was sad and Burrows men were angry. Sara and Linc were talking about the past . Memories.... Kellerman just couldn't stand their talking about past Christmas and how wonderful they were. Christmas, ha ? Wonderful...

He was sitting just near by them and thought about his own past Christmas.

The first Christmas he remembered was really nice. He was with his mother and father by his grandparents. The really one thing he remembered clearly was that he got a present. A little plastic gun. How ironic....

Next holidays were all the same. His grand parents were dead and he spent this time with his family. His father got drunk and his mother cried. There were no presents at all. They had no money for that. When his little sister show up in his life there was a'bit better. They had a Christmas tree and even sometimes presents. And he remembered giving to his sister a "little doctor set"... The first present he got from his sister was a wallet. Little black wallet. He still has it.
Than he left home. In the army he had no Christmas. They didn't celebrate it because they didn't want to talk about their families. Most of them didn't want to talk because they missed their families. He just wanted to forget.

Secret Sevice time. Hmmm... He had much to do and officially he was celebrating Christmas with his coworkers. But it was more like getting drunk as soon as possible.
And yet he was sitting and listening to some Christmas stories.

"I remember my first bike I got. I was 5 than. I was so happy. My father was at home and he brought ..."
Yeah... Right... And Linc says he had sad childhood...

"We always celebrated Christmas with all coworkers of my father. There was a hudge party with Christmass cookies and Christmas Tree and many presents.."
Right Sara, you don't need to remember me that you are really rich one.

"I remember when me and my brother hid in the living room and waited for Santa. We were so tired that we fell asleep and when we woke up there were presents around us.."
Yeah... And I remember when my sister and I was crying all the Christmas Eve because our father hit out mother. And when I tried to defend her he hit me too.

"Boys I think it's the time for presents. I just don't want to wait untill the mornig" said Sara.

Paul looked at her with a suprise...Presents ? He bought some for Sara and Linc in fact. And all the way back home he felt stupid. He bought beauty drees for Sara. Gray one. She looked so sweet in a dress. And for Link he bougth a knife. He should like walther p99 knife.  Presents ... oh crap...
Sara and Linc stood up and went to their rooms to get presents.
I will not get a one. Or probaby something stupid like a socks.

They came back with smiles on their faces.

"Well Paul, There are two for you" said Sara and kissed him in a cheek.
She... kissed him... Damned... probably  Christmas Eve is not so bad as he thought...  Linc gave him a hug and handed him little package covered with brown paper. Paul just couldn't say a word. He took of his presents for them and gave it to them.

While they were unpacking their presents he was sitting and looking at them. He really deep inside was afride that they might not like his presents.

Sara unpacked the box and took off the dress.
"Oh my... Paul... is this really for me ? You are so lovely ! Thank you !!!! " and she just cuddled him close. He didn't know how to behave. He wanted to cuddle her too but than was the fear that she might get angry... His arms were around her body but he didn't touch her... But he wished he did...

Linc was looking at the blade of the knife... "Paul , how did you know that I always dreamt of having one of those ? Thanks man !"

Than was his turn to open his presents...

First he oppened that one from Linc. Brown hard paper ... Little box .... And inside some papers and a photo. Documents were about his sister. What she is doing and how do Burrows people take care of her. There was also a letter from her and her photo....

"Linc... I .. what can I say ... I thought.. Damned... Thanks Linc. It is one of the greatest presents I ever got."

Saras presents... In the first box was a cookery  book. .. Right... "To bring memories of good times" was written on the first page...

Next present was a little brown frame with a photo inside. Saras photo. He looked at her with a suprise... Why did she give me her photo ?

"I thought you would like to have it." she said with a lovely smile on her face.

"Oh my..." He thought." If I want to have it... Hell I wanted !"  And than he saw strange look of Linc face. "He is not happy that she gave me that . Right, it look strange.... Oh crap. It's Christmas. For one in my life I got what I wanted !"

Kellerman looked at them and smiled...
"Guys ... I just ... It's best Christmas ever"

CHAPTER 14



And what if I start to love him ? He had changed. He became Lance like again but this time I know he is not acting. He is sweet , carrying... By every move he makes he shows me that I mean something for him. When I kissed him today he was just suprised ... But I also saw a pain in his eyes... Probably I just shouldn't give him that photo. It will hurt him and I just can't love him... There is no furure for us.... And is there a future for me and Michael ? He loves his brother more than me... No. Surely I just won't fall in love with him. He tried to kill me ! .... But in fact I forgave him that long time ago and I wanted to kill him too.... Oh , come on... What are you thinking about ! You and Kellerman ? Are you mad ? .... But ....

And life loves to suprise us all.....

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Long silence .... They almost gave up the search for Michael. Than...
Paul went to meet his informant. Old tiny man half drunken came to the place where they have alvays meet. He sat down and said " There is a place outside of the city were some prisoners were kept long time ago. And I heard that there are new prisoners. Some cars , really expencive cars go there every night and some american guard the buildling."

Thoughts went through Kellermans mind.
Hell and all the devils ! He's alive... And what should I do now ? Tell them or let it be ? What will Sara say ? I could let it be and try to gain her feelings but if she one day got to know that I left Michael she will never forgive me. I will better do if I tell them....

Poul checked the place and found out that Mike or somebody like Mike was held in there. He went back to Linc and Sara .

"I've got new information. Mike is probably alive. They keep him...Hey Sara ? What's wrong with you ? " He jumped and caught her falling on the ground." Linc I need help here ! Linc...? Oh damned ! Don't you even think of fainting ! What's wrong with you two ? You should be happy and not behave as scared to death ..."

"I am happy " said Linc with low voice..."I am ..."

Sara looked at him with sad look in her eyes. "I ... I am happy too.. It was just so ... unexpectable..."

"Right.... Well than, do you want to hear more or not."

"For sure we want !" Said Linc sitting down on the chair.

" He is kept in an old prison . There are guards and some peolpe from the army. I really don't know what the hell army wants from Mike and others there but we have to find out. There is a man probably in charge . He also has much to say in Sona. I will try to get some informations about him first. As far as I know it can be hard to do so because he is retired but high in rank officer of American Army."


Linc and Sara sat in the quiet. Kellerman couldn't understand it. He expected them to be happy , to scream , to smile... But the only feeling he saw was fear. He could understand Linc why he was afride. He was afride that it was not Michael there. He was afride to hope. He was afride for his brother , what had happen to him. But Sara ? Why there was a fear in her eyes ? Why there was a guilt ?